I STINK MY PANTS....Discovering the true pleasure of it

Over the next few years I continued to poop in panties whenever the perfect opportunity arose but that was never more than a few times a year. I experimented with different things, standing while I pooped and sitting after I would make STINK in my panties. Strangely, although I would get aroused and play with my wee-wee I didn't masturbate to completion while wearing my messy pants. I would usually wait until after I cleaned up then would think about how the poop looked in my panties and fantasize about girls making STINK in their panties as I masturbated. By the time I was in my "junior" year of high school I had been dating the same girl for over a year and the subject of "pooping your pants" somehow came up. I was totally surprised and excited when she admitted to having a small accident in her pants a few years earlier then with her panties already dirty, she decided to finish her poop in them to see what it felt like. She told me she kind of liked it and had done it a few times on purpose since then. Over the next year she actually pooped her pants for me on four seperate occasions. It probably sounds strange but I really enjoyed putting my nose near her butt so I could smell the STINK she'd made in her panties. In addition to her telling me about herself pooping her pants, she also told me that her mom pooped in her pants "a lot". It seems that she had problems with constipation and took Ex-lax on a regular basis to deal with it. My girlfriend had witnessed numerous times when her mom didn't make it to the bathroom in time and would completely mess her pants with creamy runny STINK! I LOVED IT!!! It was an incredible turn-on to think of this forty year old woman making STINK in her panties and girdle! By the number of incidents she had, several in public, I soon began to doubt that it was totally by accident and to this day, I still believe she had a pants pooping fetish. I think she not only enjoyed making STINK in her pants, but that it excited her to have others know that she had made STINK in her pants!

I was intrigued by the Ex-lax induced BM's and my girlfriend agreed to give me one of her mom's chocolate Ex-lax to try sometime. I was almost eighteen years old and was home alone overnight one weekend. I took the Ex-lax just before going to bed as recommended and within fifteen minutes of waking up the next morning I had to poop. And I mean I REALLY NEEDED TO POOP!!! I hadn't prepared for that kind of urgency and I had to hurry to get an old pair of my mom's white nylon full cut panties from my hiding place (by then I had a couple pairs of panties in my collection that I used for pooping in). I quickly put on the panties and just like always, I immediately started getting aroused. I then bent over slightly while I stood with my back towards a full length mirror so I could watch myself as I pooped and relaxed my bowels. A small firm turd pushed into my panties and I was somewhat disappointed as I had been expecting the Ex-lax to make my poop very soft and mushy STINK. It turned out to be only a momentary disappointment as the small firm turd was only the "plug" in the dike. Within seconds I relaxed my bowels again and my panties ballooned outward as they quickly filled with an ENORMOUS PILE of warm mushy STINK!!! I could hardly believe how full my panties were and I still wasn't done with my BM. I gave one more "grunt" and felt another massive amount of extremely mushy STINK pushing into my panties with some of it oozing out of the leg openings and dropping onto the floor. As I stood there looking at the large mess I'd made in the panties I could only imagine how often my girlfriends mom looked in a mirror and saw a similar sight.

I tried to not allow poop to fall onto the floor as I carefully walked to a wooden chair in a different room. I then sat down in my STINK causing the warm mushy mess to squish and spread in the seat of the panties. My butt was completely covered with thick creamy STINK and it felt absolutely wonderful! I had never before sat in such a big pile of STINK then almost immediately I surprisingly felt another sensation. A hot stream of cum squirted into my panties and as I looked down at them I could see a thick glob that had penetrated the silky material. I began moving my butt around in my STINK and watched the wet spot grow bigger as I uncontrollably ejaculated! I could hardly believe what had happened. Even though I had gotten an erection when I first put the panties on, I hadn't even touched my wee-wee at all. I absolutely had not masturbated and the only stimulation for my excitement was from sitting in a big pile of warm creamy STINK!!! It was delightful and I truly loved it!!! I was amazed that just having STINK in my pants was so exciting that it made me cum! From that moment, I knew that I wanted to STINK in my pants every time that I had the opportunity. At the time it seemed there was nothing more sexually pleasureable than filling a pair of panties with STINK and CUM!!!

I STINK my pants....the beginning

My desire for pooping my pants started when I was in second grade. I was downtown with my mom and older sister. They were shopping in a womans/girls clothing store and I had gone to Woolworths to kill time in the toy department. I had to poop and tried to relieve the pressure by farting. Instead I ended up filling my pants with a very messy poop. I walked back to the store where my mom and sister were shopping. My sister was in a dressing room trying on some clothes when I approached my mom and told her "I had an accident in my pants". She asked "number one?" and when I shook my head "no" she said rather loudly "STINK? YOU MADE STINK IN YOUR PANTS?" She asked how it happened and I explained it to her then she said they weren't done shopping and I would either have to wait there or in the car. We lived only five minutes from downtown and with a little whining I was able to talk her into taking me home. When my sister came out of the dressing room I heard my mom say "your brother just made a stink in his pants. I'm going to take him home and will be right back". The clerk standing next to her heard my mom also and it was totally embarrassing then my sister said to me "I can't believe you went stink in your pants? What a baby". I had to sit in my pooped pants as my mom drove me home and she told me to leave my dirty underwear in the bathroom so she could wash them out when she got back later. I was happy that my dad worked nights and wasn't around when we got home. I removed my underwear and they were really a mess. At times in my childhood I had little diarrhea accidents from letting out a small wet fart but on this particular time my underwear were full of thick creamy poop. For the first time in my life outside of diapers I had made a BIG poop in my pants and I always remembered it. I don't know why but I replayed that incident in my mind over the next few years. I distinctly remembered the event in detail but over time the rememberance of what it felt like to have a big poop in my pants diminished and by the time I was in seventh grade I was becoming curious. By then I had also started thinking that the reason I often saw my moms and sisters panties hanging wet in the bathroom was because they had pooped in them. I determined that if they were pooping in their panties so much it must be something really fun. I wanted to again see what it felt like and decided that when I got the right opportunity, I was going to poop my pants!

It had been a few months since I began thinking about pooping my pants and I was really getting anxious. In April 1969 I was home alone and finally had the chance I'd been waiting for. I didn't have to poop as badly as I would have liked but still I knew I could poop and I wasn't going to let the opportunity slip away. I was nervous as I sat on the toilet in a normal position but with my underwear still on. After a little bit of effort a firm turd came out and dropped into my underwear. I was thirteen and I had just purposely pooped in my pants! I immediately got very paranoid about what I'd done, quickly stood up and dumped the turd out then wiped the small amount of poop residue from my underwear. It really wasn't how I hoped it would be and decided it was a dumb thing to do. It only took a few days however for me to decide I wanted to try it one more time but I was going to wait until I needed to poop badly so it would be easier to go and I could fill my underwear with more than a small turd. As I waited for the opportunity to experiment again I also decided that I wanted to do it in panties instead of my own underwear. I got an older pair of my sisters panties and hid them, trying them on occasionally and looking at myself in the mirror while imagining what they would look like full of poop.

I only had to wait a little over a month for the perfect opportunity. My family was gone for the day and I was hanging out with some friends at one of their houses in my neighborhood when I felt the need to poop. It came on quickly and by the way I felt I knew it was going to be a big one. At that time in my life I had an afternoon newspaper route and since it was getting close to the time of day for the papers to get dropped off at my house, I had a good excuse for going home. I actually had to poop so badly that I was almost desperate and ran back to my house. I got my sisters white nylon panties from my hiding place and had some incredible butterflies in my stomach as I put them on then went into the bathroom and again sat on the toilet in my usual pooping position. Unlike the first time I knew it was not going to take any effort to poop. I then relaxed my bowels and immediately felt a very large amount of warm creamy poop pile up in the seat of my sisters panties. This time it wasn't just a little poop in my pants I had definitely made STINK in my pants, a BIG MESSY CREAMY STINK just as I had been wanting to do. I never had so much poop in my pants and I could feel a warm stickiness against my butt. I got pretty paranoid again since I was doing something that I had been trained throughout my entire life not to do but in a strange way it felt good and I wanted to leave it in the panties for at least a few minutes. When I stood up and walked over to the mirror to look at myself, the pile of poop hanging in the seat of the panties felt enormous. I already had an obvious boner sticking out in the front of the panties then I turned around and looked at my butt in the mirror. I could see the panties were already stained around the large bulge in the seat then I stood there for a moment enjoying the view of how panties looked when they are full of STINK. Surprisingly I didn't masturbate that first time and even though no one was supposed to be home for a few more hours I was nervous about being caught and took the panties off after only a few minutes. Since I had accomplished what I wanted and thought that it was a one time thing, I foolishly threw the panties away instead of washing them out.

My Sissy Confession....mom called it STINK

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I sucked my second cock!

It was almost two years since the first time that I sucked a cock and afterwards I thought I would probably never do it again....but I DID! I'd been getting horny thinking about trying it again so a few weeks ago I contacted a man that I had communicated with last fall. We weren't able to find a way to get together then and it was forgotten. When I contacted him last month he was still interested in having me suck his cock while I was dressed in bra and panties. After a few e-mails we were able to determine a time and place that worked for both of us.

I met him at his office on a Friday morning. No one else was in the office that day so it was a perfect setting. He was a year older then me, about 6 foot 1 inches tall and looked fit. I was nervous from the moment I arrived and when I told him I was there for a 10AM appointment, he knew what I was there for and led me to the conference room. I had told him ahead of time that if possible I would like to suck him in front of a mirror as I wanted to see what I looked like with a cock in my mouth. When I walked into the conference room I saw a chair sitting in front of a mirror and I knew my fantasy was about to come true.

He asked if I was wearing bra and panties and when I told him I was he had me strip down to my feminine undies. At the same time he removed his clothes and I saw his nice thick cock for the first time. He had me sit in the chair and when he moved in front of me I began to lick his cock and balls then took his cock in my mouth. After sucking him for a few minutes he got down on his knees, pulled the front of my panties down then began to play with my cock and balls before licking and sucking them. It felt so good that I had to ask him to stop as I felt like I was about to cum. He then had me remove my panties so he could check out my butt. I then got down on my knees and as I began to suck him again I asked him to sit in the chair. I took his cock in my mouth then looked at myself in the mirror sucking his thick 7 inch cock. I was playing with my cock while I watched myself sucking his and it was more excitement then I could handle. I tried to get myself under control but it was too late as I began shooting my load into my own hand. I apoloized and he was understanding as he gave me a kleenex to clean up with then he took my limp cock in his mouth to taste the last bit of my cum. He had me turn around and bend over then he started playing with my butt as he massaged my balls between my legs. I felt his finger against my hole then he pushed it in. It felt big and hurt a little with no lubricant. He continued to finger my hole then he said "oh shit" as the excitement got to be too much for him also and he shot his load on his belly.

It wasn't the way I had hoped it would end but before we parted ways we talked about getting together again sometime. As I drove home, I felt a kind of strange about what I had done and decided there wouldn't be a next time. After only two weeks I began getting the desire to suck cock. I contacted my male friend and we're both anxious for the next time. The time and place hasn't been determined yet but I know it will be as soon as we have the opportunity. Now that we've been together once, I'm certain we will both be a little more relaxed the next time and the results will be better. I'm really curious as to what it's like to have a man shoot his hot load of cum in my mouth. I hope I will finally know after our next meeting!

Sucking cock one time means you're curious, but after the second time it means you are a cocksucker. And since I'm craving having a cock in my mouth again, I think I can safely say "I AM A SISSY COCKSUCKER!!!"

The attached pictures are what I wore and looked like for my second cocksucking experience. I think the flowered panties are very sissy looking! Don't you agree?

Exposed myself as planned

Today went just as planned, I masturbated on webcam with my face showing the entire time. It was such an incredible turn on! I was called a slut and a bitch, and ordered to fuck my butt deep and fast with my rubber dildo. I was moaning with pleasure as I rubbed my wee-wee and fucked my butt! It was absolutely wonderful!!! My sesssion ended with me cumming in my panties. What a surprise! It felt so good and I loved knowing that my face was being seen as I masturbated. I can hardly wait for the next time!!!

Exposing myself on webcam

I plan on "fully exposing" myself this Friday, 12/17 between 9AM and 10AM EST (2PM and 3PM GMT) at Webcamnow.com. I will be dressed in bra and panties, and sucking a rubber cock as I masturbate. I'm certain I'll also be using that rubber cock in my butt at times too! My camera will be positioned in such a manner that my face will be visible throughout my entire masturbation session. I can hardly believe I'm planning on doing this and I'm trembling with excitement thinking about how anyone in the world will be able to see me and my facial expressions as I enjoy playing with my wee-wee while wearing panties. I'm so turned on that I'm playing with myself now as I write and I very nearly came in my pants! I CAN'T WAIT TO MASTURBATE AND CUM IN MY PANTIES on cam in less then 72 hours!!! Anyone watching will be able to see who this sissy is! And I hope there will be several people!!!

Masturbating on webcam again

I was back on Webcamnow.com this morning masturbating. It's so exciting having others watch me while I play with my wee-wee! Today I was dressed in bra, Olga panties, and stockings. I started out the session with my butt plug in place. After about ten minutes on cam I pulled my panties down to reveal my butt plug to everyone watching. I then pulled my panties back up and continued to play with my wee-wee in my panties. After about ten more minutes and after getting fully aroused, I removed my panties and the butt plug then inserted a ten inch rubber dildo into my waiting hole. I got incredibly turned on having others watch me fuck my own butt with a dildo while I continued playing with my wee-wee. I couldn't help but moan with pleasure which they seemed to enjoy. When I realized that I couldn't control myself much longer I put my panties back on, put the butt plug back in place then sucked the dildo that had been in my butt. Within seconds the viewers watched me completely soak my pretty panties with cum. I pulled my wet panties down in front and rubbed the dildo in my cum then licked it clean. It was an incredible turn on having people see what a sissy I can be. I can hardly wait for my next opportunity to have fun on my webcam. The images are how I looked just before starting my session.