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Recent fun on webcam

It's been a while since I had a really enjoyable time masturbating on a live webcam but my last time was definitely fun. I was dressed in white silky panties and a white bra when I logged on at Webcamnow.com as CockInPanty. I began checking out various live webcams to see what interesting activity I could find. I generally check out the webcams with females first but as is usually the case, there really wasn't anyone interesting. Of course being a sissy, I enjoy the webcams with men also. I prefer guys who are forty to sixty years old and the ones that are't too physically fit. I don't know why but watching an average guy playing with his cock is more of a turn on for me than some studly guy with a great physique. Anyway, I found a couple guys to watch and flipped back and forth between them, rubbing my sissy little wee-wee in my panties as they played with their cocks. A few people came into my room to check me out but no one messaged me. After being on webcam for about ten minutes Miss Sindee entered my room and started a conversation. She told me she wss married and enjoyed making her husband be a sissy. She told me some things she's made him do and I commented on how lucky he was. She then asked if I would like to be her sissy and I anxiously admitted that I would. Miss Sindee then began telling me the things she would make me do and my wee-wee started getting very aroused. It was HOT! She told me how she would make me dress as a woman and make me beg for her to fuck my boy pussy with a big strap-on dildo. She would then bring in a man and I would be required to lick his ball as he fucked her. When he was done I would have to lick her pussy clean. I would then have to suck the mans cock and get him ready for her again. As Miss Sindee told me everything I would have to do I became more and more aroused. She then began asking me questions and made me admit to everyone in the room that I wanted to have my boy pussy fucked by a big cock and that I desired to suck cock and swallow cum. It wasn't long before I was so turned on I could hardly control myself and Miss Sindee had me right where she wanted me. She told me to play with my sissy cock in my panties for her and she then said since I was her sissy she wanted me to cum in my panties for her. I moaned with pleasure as I asked "you want me to cum in my panties?" and she replied "Yes, NOW!" And oh my god, I creamed them for her! I shot a large hot load in my pretty panties for Miss Sindee and it was wonderful!

my game today at the mall..."STINK Your Pants Now"

It's my day off work and when I woke up this morning I already knew I wanted to have fun making STINK in my pants at the local mall again. I had a strong urge for a poop all morning but knew I wanted to hold it until at least 10AM in order to let the mall get a little busier. Back many years ago I used to play a game of chance that I called "STINK your pants now" where I would have to mess my pants at a random time and place. I think I have mentioned it in a previous writing. I updated the game somewhat and played it today.

I prepared by putting on white full cut cotton panties, plastic pants, and a firm control long leg panty girdle under my jeans. I also inserted a Dulcolax laxative suppository prior to leaving my house. When I arrived at the mall I set the alarm on my cell phone for a random time approximately 20 minutes later, turned it on vibrate and put it in my pocket. I then began walking around in the mall with the intent being that as soon as I felt the vibrations when the alarm went off, no matter where I was at or who was near me, I would immediately have to STINK my pants. I made sure not to look at my watch and even though I knew I would have a general idea when it was getting near 20 minutes, I knew I wouldn't know exactly when it would be. I had to poop pretty badly even before I used the suppository so it didn't take long while walking in the mall before the urge to go was getting very strong. It was a wonderful feeling because I knew without a doubt when the time arrived I would be able to fill my pants with STINK.

I was on the escalator in JC Penny about a third of the way up and two women were just getting on at the bottom when I felt the vibration from my cell phone. I glanced back towards the women then grunted and my panties were quickly filled with warm creamy STINK!!! The girdle did a great job of causing the soft poo to spread out in my panties. It felt so good and I was so turned on. When I got off the escalator I put my hand on my butt and pushed into the STINK to spread it out even further. I then left Penney's and walked a short ways through the mall then sat down on a bench and pretended to check my cell phone for messages. The plastic pants were doing a good job of holding in the smell so I continued to sit there for about 5 minutes enjoying myself with the thought of sitting in the mall with my pants full of STINK and no one having any idea of it at all. After that, I continued walking around inside the mall for about 15 more minutes before leaving.

I enjoyed myself so much at the mall and since the smell was so well contained I didn't want to stop my fun just yet. I had a few items that I needed to get at Meijers so I stopped there on my way home. As I walked in the store I couldn't believe I was going inside to shop with my pants already full of creamy messy STINK. I walked around the store for about 10 minutes before getting my items then took them to the self check-out lane. As I scanned my items I was able to detect a slight odor and I was hoping no one would come up behind me before I was done. I made it undetected then came home and masturbated prior to cleaning up my messy pants.

I know I've said it before but I'm going to say it again.....Im a sissy and I Love to STINK MY PANTS!!!

I STINK MY PANTS....my first time in a store after taking a laxative

One of the more memorable moments I enjoy thinking about is the first time that I made STINK in my panties in a store after taking a laxative. I had taken laxatives on a number of occasions at my home when I would STINK my panties but had never used them when doing it in a public place. When I had finally decided to try it, I was a little nervous as I knew there was the potential for the soft messy STINK to stain through my pants and be very noticeable. I had a few days off from work and after not having a BM for two days, I knew it would be a good time to make a laxative induced STINK in my panties at a store. I took a laxative before going to bed and it wasn't long after I awoke the next morning that I really needed to poop badly! Even though I had planned on going to a store that is open 24 hours, it was still early and I was hoping to wait until later in the morning when the store would be busier to make it more exciting. I put on pink Hanes Her Way full cut cotton panties and a Playtex firm control long leg panty girdle under my jeans to give myself as much "protection" as I could then sat down to wait while hoping I would be able to control myself for longer. Even though the laxative was doing it's job and it was a struggle to not STINK my pants, I managed to wait until around 9:30AM before leaving my house for the ten minute drive to the store I had chosen to go to. When I arrived at the store I was really feeling nervous about what I was planning to do but by then I needed to poop so badly that I didn't have time to think much about it. I wanted to make a big messy STINK in my pants in a public location and I wasn't about to lose the opportunity that I had. I walked quickly through the large store to the back where the CD's and video's were located then stopped and pretended to be looking for a CD. At that moment I felt like I couldn't wait for even another minute and since there was no one else standing in that same aisle I began my usual ritual by quietly saying to myself "oh god I can't hold it in any longer, I'm going to STINK my pants". I was really nervous about how messy my STINK might be so I just tried to relax my sphincter slightly and I felt a small amount of very soft STINK ooze into my panties. It was warm and creamy and felt so wonderful that I knew I wanted to have more of it in my pants. By then it didn't matter what I wanted. I had lost control of my bowels and felt an enormous amount of hot mushy STINK filling my panties and spreading out over my butt followed immediately by another enormous amount of more mushy STINK. In a matter of seconds I had completely filled my pants with the biggest pile of soft mushy STINK that I could imagine and I still wasn't done. Thus far the girdle seemed to be containing the large amount of messy STINK and since I was confident none had gotten into my pants I quickly decided that I wanted to FILL my panties with as much STINK as I could before leaving the store. There was still no one nearby to where I was standing so I grunted then heard the bubbly sound of mushy runny STINK as I felt another large amount of the hot creamy mess spreading in my panties. My desire had been to completely fill my panties with STINK and I knew right away that I had certainly accomplished that. I could tell the gooey mess had already oozed far enough between my legs to cover my balls and some of it had pushed out of the leg openings of my panties down into the legs of my girdle. The odor around me left no doubt that I had just made STINK in my pants and I knew I needed to leave the area immediately then started walking towards the exit. As I walked through the store I was very aware of the large mess I had in my pants and enjoyed every moment of it.

After leaving the store I sat down in my van in the parking lot to drive home and squished the massive pile of STINK I had in my pants. I have to say that I REALLY ENJOYED THAT!!! The warm mushy mess went everywhere! Up my backside, around my butt cheeks, and it pushed so far up into the front of my panties that I could feel it on my fully aroused wee-wee. I started sliding my butt back and forth in my STINK and was going to masturbate at that moment but then decided to wait until I got home to have fun. Every time I would get stopped at a traffic signal I would again slide my butt back and forth in my STINK as I totally enjoyed having such a large amount in my panties. As I would move my butt the firmness of my girdle would also massage my erection with my STINK that had pushed into the front of the panties and that was really turning me on. After about the fifth traffic signal I couldn't take the excitement any longer and ejaculated into my STINK filled panties! While I was enjoying myself as I drove home I never really thought about how much of a mess I was making but as soon as I parked in my driveway and got out of the van it became very apparent. I saw STINK on the back of the seat then as I put my hand on my back I could feel the gooey mess on my shirt. I didn't know at that moment how bad it was but still I began to panick a little as I knew I was standing in full view of my neighbors house in broad daylight with STINK visibly showing on my back. I hurried into my house and as far as I know, I wasn't seen. If I had been it was REALLY obvious that I had completely messed my pants. There was thick light brown STINK on my jeans from where it had pushed over the top of the waist and there was also STINK on about the lower four inches of the shirt I was wearing. It was exciting for me when I pulled down my panties and looked at my limp wee-wee covered with STINK but even more exciting to see my cum mixed in with my STINK in the front of the panties. After that day it's always been a special treat whenever I have enough messy STINK in my panties that it squishes up in the front and I'm able to masturbate my wee-wee in my STINK. Of course there have also been other times where I have teken STINK in my hand and used it as a lubricant while stroking my wee-wee but that isn't quite as much fun as the other way. I still remember that day well and even though I've wanted to repeat the event as far as the amount of STINK I had in my panties while being in public, thus far I have not been able to accomplish it. I am still hoping that someday I can make that much STINK in my pants again while in a public location.

I STINK MY PANTS......my first time on purpose in a store

After realizing how exciting it was to STINK my pants outside of my house I wanted to do it in a more "public" place where there would be other people around me and thought it would be fun to try it at a store. For my first time I wanted to go somewhere that wasn't too busy or too confined but yet would give me the thrill of being in public with people around. I decided on a K-Mart near to my house where I knew on weeknights there were never too many shoppers. Within a few days I had the opportunity I was hoping for. Shortly after eating dinner one evening I started getting a strong urge to poop and I knew it would be the perfect time to STINK my pants at K-Mart. I put on a long leg panty girdle over my full cut cotton panties for added protection to insure that my poop wouldn't escape into my jeans then to make things a little more interesting, I inserted a suppository prior to leaving for K-Mart. I already had butterflies in my stomach in anticipation of what I was about to do and by the time I arrived at K-Mart I was also starting to get a little nervous. The suppository was having the desired effects and after walking around in the store for only about five minutes my need to poop had gotten to the point that I felt like I couldn't "hold it' much longer. I was in the Housewares area then walked to the aisle where the picture frames are located and there was a woman standing there looking at frames. I went to the far end of the aisle a good distance from where she was then pretended to also be looking at frames. By then the butterflies in my stomach were enormous and I wasn't sure I could go through with my plan. The woman hadn't gotten any nearer to me and as I stood there I thought to myself "should I do this or not? I know it's crazy but I really want to go in my pants". I thought about it for a few more seconds then I quietly said to myself "I'm going to do it, I'm going to STINK my pants". Without further hesitation I grunted and heard the crackling sound of STINK quickly filling my pants. And there was no doubt at all that I FILLED THEM!!! I was almost shocked by the large amount of creamy STINK I'd pushed into my panties and for the first time since that infamous moment at Woolworths when I was eight years old, I was standing in a store and my pants were completely FULL OF STINK!!! The area where I was standing was instantly filled with the odor of STINK and if anyone would have walked by me at that moment they would have known I had it in my pants. I knew I needed to leave right away and began to walk through the store towards the exit. Although I was very paranoid it felt wonderful walking through a K-Mart with my pants full of STINK and in a strange way I was almost wishing that someone would know. No one was ever very near to me though and I'm certain I got out undetected. As soon as I sat down in my van and felt my STINK squishing up my butt crack and between my legs, I couldn't wait any longer to fully enjoy myself. I began rubbing my excited wee-wee through my jeans as I rocked back and forth in my STINK and within seconds I soaked my panties with cum!

Since that first time at K-Mart, I have enjoyed filling my panties with STINK in various stores, at the local mall on a number of occasions, while taking long bicycle rides and while walking around in my neighborhood. I've worn panties, girdles, and diapers. No matter how many times I do it, I still get the same adrenaline "rush" and always find it exciting. I usually enjoy using laxatives, suppositories, or bottled enemas when making STINK in my panties in public places in order to help give me a feeling of "desperation". It's so exciting to be somwhere in a public place and having to go STINK so badly that I know I can't make it to a restroom if I wanted to. At that moment I will think to myself "oh god, I'm going to STINK my pants" then totally enjoy the wonderful feeling of the warm creamy mess spreading in my panties followed by the "panick" from knowing that I'm in public with my pants full of STINK!

I STINK MY PANTS.....and I'm addicted to it!

For the last six months prior to my wedding day I made STINK and would then cum in my panties at least once a week. I thought maybe I would get tired of doing it but that wasn't the case. I seemed to be enjoying it and getting more turned on each time I did it. A few days before my wedding I decided I had to quit. I threw away most of the panties and the pantyhose that were in my collection except for a few pair that I felt like I could keep hidden from my wife. I guess I also wanted to keep a few panties "just in case" although I was determined I was going to stop making STINK in my panties. I was only about a month into my marriage when I faltered for the first time. I was unemployed at the time so I had plenty of extra time on my hands while my new bride was at work. Shortly after waking up one morning I started having cramps and a very strong urge to poop. I knew from the way I felt I had a big creamy STINK needing to come out and I couldn't resist my desire. I put on one of the pairs of panties that I had kept and totally filled them with a large messy pile of warm creamy STINK! I had really missed doing it and it felt wonderful having my panties full of STINK again. I then sat down in the bathtub in my STINK filled panties and masturbated to a very intense orgasm! So much for quitting! After that I was right back to doing it every chance that I got and over the next eight months as I remained unemployed I was able to STINK my panties a lot!

Throughout my marriage I surprisingly was able to find more opportunities to STINK my panties than you would imagine. I nearly got caught one time and I have no idea how I would have explained it. Fortunately I didn't have to. My fetish did begin having a negative impact on my marriage over time and by about the fourth year I realized that I was enjoying making STINK in my panties and masturbating more than I enjoyed having sex with my wife. It got so bad that when I knew I was going to have the chance to STINK in my panties I would sometimes avoid sex with my wife in order to enjoy having a stronger and more intense orgasm when I masturbated with STINK in my filled panties. During the last year of our marriage we purchased a video camera and by then I was so obsessed with making STINK in my panties that I began making video's of myself doing it. I would then watch myself in the videos on days when I wasn't able to enjoy the actual pleasure. There were many days when I would come home from work on my lunch break and masturbate while watching a video of myself making STINK in my panties!

Although I was quite saddened when my wife and I divorced the one thing that I looked forward to with being "single" again was having the opportunity to STINK my panties any time that I wanted without having to hide it. My wife moved out on a Saturday morning and by noon of that day I had STINK in my panties The next day after that I made STINK in my panties again and the day after that too. It was wonderful and I decided then that any time I was at home alone and needed to poop, I was going to STINK my panties. In that first year after my wife had moved out, I made STINK in my panties more than 300 times! And the year after that I did it more than 300 times again! The only time I used the toilet for a BM was if I was in a situation where I couldn't do it in my pants! I was also having lots of great sex since I would always play with my wee-wee when my panties were full of STINK and inevitably I would soak my panties with a big load of cum! Although I eventually cut down on the number of times I was making STINK in my pants, I never did get tired of doing it or enjoying it. As strange as this may sound, I even kept track of the number of times I did it and what panties I messed in. By the time I finally remarried 12 years later, I had enjoyed having STINK in my panties over 2,600 times!!!

One morning about a year after my wife and I divorced I was taking the trash out to the curbside for the weekly garbage pick-up and was feeling a strong urge to poop. I already knew I was going to STINK in my panties when I went back inside but then an idea came to mind. There was no one else around and it seemed like it could be exciting to make STINK in my pants while outside of my house. I was wearing gray sweat pants and a pair of white cotton full cut panties. When I got out to the street and sat the trash bag down I grunted and completely filled my panties with a big mushy STINK! I rubbed my hand across my butt and could feel a large bulge hanging in the seat of my sweats. If anyone had been nearby and looked closely at me I'm certain they would have noticed the bulge in my sweats but as I said, no one was around unless they happened to be looking out their windows. If someone had seen me that morning walking back towards my house the sight probably would have been quite humorous to them. It would have not only been obvious from the bulge in my seat that I had pooped my pants but they would have also known from the very noticeable "tenting" bulge in the front of my sweats that I was enjoying it! This essentially was the beginning of "pooping my pants in public" and over the next several months I did the same thing a number of times.

One of my favorite times of doing this was one morning when I saw two teenage girls on their way to school, walking in my direction on the sidewalk just as I was walking down my drive-way with the trash. As soon as I saw them I knew what I wanted to do and I started getting aroused by the thought of it. Like the times before, when I got out to the street I sat the bag of trash down then grunted and filled my panties with STINK. As I turned around the girls were crossing my drive-way, our eyes met and we said "good morning" to each other as they walked by. With the dark sweat pants I had on that morning I'm sure they didn't notice my boner bulging in the front of my sweats or the large bulge from STINK in the seat but still it was an incredible turn-on. I had spoken with two young females who were within a few feet of me while wearing panties FILLED WITH STINK!!! As I walked back towards my house I discreetly began to rub my excited wee-wee through my pants and ejaculated in my panties before I got inside!

I STINK MY PANTS!!! Discovering the full pleasure.

For the last few years that I was living with my parents I would STINK my pants whenever I would have a "perfect" opportunity but that wasn't more then ten or twenty times a year. Even though it wasn't as often as I would have liked, it was fun and I almost always would masturbate and cum in my panties while doing it. Surprisingly, after I moved out into my own apartment and could have made STINK in my panties at any time that I wanted I decided that I was going to stop doing it. For the next three years I had virtually stopped. I did STINK my panties a few times a year but considering that I could have done it almost every day if I had wanted, I pretty much felt like I had "kicked" my habit. On my twenty-sixth birthday that all changed.

About a week before my birthday I found a pair of white control-top pantyhose in the laundry room at my apartment building. I took them back to my apartment and tried them on. They felt wonderful and I loved the tightness on my butt and wee-wee. I began to play with myself and it didn't take long before I soaked them with a big load of cum. As I washed them out I started wondering what it would be like to make a big messy STINK in them? I had never done it in pantyhose and I already knew it was something I wanted to try. I put them away with my growing collection of panties and decided to wait until sometime when I really needed to poop badly in order to be certain to enjoy making a big messy STINK in them! On my twenty-sixth birthday my fiancee's mom made me dinner. Later that night when I got back to my apartment it was time for my own private birthday celebration consisting of a few hits off the bong while listening to some tunes, and then an enjoyable masturbation session with "my girls". My girls were the pictures of women in my Penthouse and Playboy magazines. During my masturbation sessions I would peruse through the magazines getting myself aroused and select whatever pictures from each magazine that struck my mood for that session. I would then line them up on my sofa and when I was fully aroused I would remove my clothes and let my girls watch me masturbate. On that night my masturbation session ended up being a little differently from what I had thought it was going to be.

I put on some tunes then after a few hits from the bong I was catching a good buzz and enjoying the music while watching television with the volume turned down. As I sat there I started getting some cramps in my lower abdomen and began to feel like I may need to poop but I didn't think much about it. After about an hour I was feeling horny and more then ready to masturbate. I took another hit from the bong then started going through the pictures in the magazines in my usual manner and lining up my favorites for that night on the couch. As I was looking through the magazines the cramps in my abdomen had gotten much worse and it had become apparent that I badly needed to poop. I also knew by the way I felt that it wasn't going to be a firm normal poop, it was going to be STINK, very soft and creamy STINK and I immediately thought about the control-top pantyhose. I was already somewhat aroused but as soon as I started thinking about making STINK in the pantyhose my wee-wee got really hard. I quickly looked through the last few magazines in my collection then went into the bedroom and put on the pantyhose.

Of all the times that I had made STINK in my pants in my life, I had never been "high" when I did it and I was turned on more than ever by the thought of what I was about to do. I then did my best "girly" strut back into the living room, stopped in front of the couch and began rubbing my excited wee-wee through the pantyhose as I said "you girls are in for a very special treat tonight". I continued massaging my excited erect wee-wee while moving in rhythm with the music then slowly turned around with my butt towards the pictures and said "I'll bet you girls have never watched an adult male STINK his pants". I put both hands on my hips, bent over slightly, then with one good grunt I totally filled the seat of the pantyhose with a large amount of very mushy STINK! It was probably a good thing I had the music on to drown out my voice or my neighbor might have heard me say with delight "Oh girls look at me, I just made STINK in my pantyhose and it feels so good!" As I continued dancing and moving my hips the tight control-top pantyhose forced my STINK to spread between my legs and I could feel some had oozed a little ways down the back of my legs. I was in complete ecstasy and had to stop rubbing my excited wee-wee to keep from cumming too soon. I went into the bathroom to check myself in the mirror and seeing the mess I had made excited me even more. Whenever I had pooped in panties I could see the bulges and the stain but in the pantyhose I COULD SEE MY STINK!!! I don't know why but it really turned me on to see all that lovely brown gooey STINK through the sheer material of the pantyhose. I stood there moving my hips around and watching the mess spread around on my butt while carefully massaging my wee-wee. I then went back into the front room to dance for the girls again but I knew I couldn't control myself for long. I already had a nice wet spot from pre-cum in the front of the pantyhose. After only another minute the desire to cum was getting to be too much. I quickly walked back into the bathroom where I could watch myself in the mirror again and started bending over then standing up then bending over then standing up. Every time I would bend over the pantyhose would pull very tight against my butt causing STINK to spread all over my butt. By then it was all the way up my butt crack, about six inches down the back of my legs and had also pushed well up between my legs. My balls were covered with the gooey mess and I was loving it.

When I had started the bending and standing motion I was doing it slowly while looking in the mirror at the STINK in the pantyhose but then I kept increasing the pace and it didn't take long before I was moving rather quickly. The pantyhose was not only smearing my STINK it was also providing hands free masturbation of my very aroused wee-wee and I could tell my excitement was building towards an incredible orgasm. When I felt as if I couldn't take the pleasurable sensations for even one more second I turned around to face the mirror, then with both hands on my hips I continued to rapidly bend all the way over and stand up. As I stood up I then began to thrust my hips forward and I could see my excited pink wee-wee straining in the sheer material with pre-cum oozing from the head. It was crazy how rapidly I was bending over then standing up but it felt so good. If I did that today I would probably throw my back out but at that moment it was total pleasure. After only about ten times of rapidly bending and standing the excitement became too much and I saw a big glob of thick white cum appear inside the pantyhose. I'd never felt my wee-wee unload like it did on that first squirt and I remember squealing rather loudly "OH YEA, I LOVE TO STINK MY PANTS!!!" I continued in the same motion at least five more times with thick streams of cum squirting into my pantyhose all the while repeating "I LOVE TO STINK MY PANTS! I LOVE TO STINK MY PANTS!". It was one of the most incredible orgasms I ever had and when it ended I felt totally spent.

As I stood there looking at myself with cum and STINK in the pantyhose I was thinking that may have been the strangest thing I'd ever done but yet there was no denying that it really turned me on and I totally enjoyed myself. For the previous three years I had virtually overcome my addiction to pooping in my pants but now I was again hooked. The bad news was that I only had six months until I would be getting married and I had now just become aware that I REALLY LOVED making STINK in my pants. After that night I had the desire to do it as often as I could before my wedding. My addiction had begun.