Wednesday, September 30, 2009

first time tasting my own cum

I really enjoyed the years I had alone in my apartment and became a chronic masturbator. During that time I had added a number of pairs of panties to my collection that I found in the apartments laundry room. It was always wonderful to find new pairs then take them back to my apartment and pleasure myself in them as I imagined what the female who had owned them would be thinking if she knew a man was now playing with his cock in them. The first time masturbating in them was always the best and they would always end up soaked with cum!

Although I didn’t know it at the time, when I was 25 the seed for my future sissy desires was planted. I had smoked some weed and was sitting in my apartment in panties preparing for one of my many masturbation sessions. I already was getting aroused as I looked at the pictures in a new issue of Penthouse then began browsing through the Penthouse Forum to see if there were any stories that interested me. I can’t remember the title of this particular story but I know it intrigued me so I decided to read it. It was about a guy who had picked up a woman at a bar then went with her back to her apartment. He was shocked to find another guy there but the female didn’t really say much to the guy and led the man from the bar to the bedroom. After being disappointed by his “size” she decided to humiliate him rather then let him enjoy the pleasure of her pussy. She made him kiss and lick her ass then when she pushed his face into her pussy she asked if he liked his pussy “wet and slimy”? She never let him touch himself throughout and by then his cock was aching for pleasure. She then had the other man come in the room. He had a large cock and she sucked him before laying on the bed and having him fuck her while the man from the bar watched. As soon as the man with the big cock filled her pussy with cum she lifted her legs then told the other man to come over and lick her “wet slimy pussy”. The man was now so desperate to have his cock pleasured that he was willing to do anything to get relief. He knelt down and looked at her cum filled pussy then she pulled his face in as she told him to lick and suck. She then lowered her legs and globs of cum slid into his mouth. He was disgusted but totally turned on. She then told him it was “time to have yours” then had him lay on the floor and put his feet back over his head. She began to lick his balls and cock and as he began to moan with pleasure she squeezed his balls tight and told him to open his mouth. She then rapidly jerked off his cock until he shot a large load of his own cum into his waiting mouth.

Up to that time it was the hottest thing I had ever read and I became incredibly aroused at the thought of having a female humiliate me by jacking me off and making me eat another man’s cum as well as my own cum. After reading that story I was incredibly turned on and my excited hard cock was forming a nice tent in my panties. I really needed to masturbate and I already knew exactly what I was going to do. I began rubbing my cock through my panties as I read the story again, fantasizing that I was the man that went home with the woman and was so turned on by the time I finished that my panties were wet from pre-cum. I went into the bedroom and took off my panty then looked at myself in the mirror. My cock was as hard as it could possibly be, the skin on the head was stretched tight and glistening from the pre-cum. I wiped the pre-cum around on the head of my cock then wrapped my fingers around my erection and watched myself slowly stroke up and down the full length of my shaft. I then laid down on the bed with a pillow under my head and raised my feet putting them back over my head as far as I could. My excited cock was only about six inches away and directly over my face. I was really turned on looking at my cock in that position with more pre-cum hanging from the tip. I began stroking up and down the full length of me cock again very slowly but the excitement was too much and I couldn’t wait any longer. I said to myself “it’s time to have yours” then opened my mouth wide and rapidly stroked my erection. A thick stream of cum immediately shot on my face and in my mouth then I continued to rapidly jack off, filling my waiting mouth with a very large load of cum before gulping down the slimy glob. It was the first time I’d ever tasted or swallowed my own cum then after my excitement subsided I was disgusted with myself and vowed to never do it again. Those promises don’t usually last long for me and two nights later I read the story again and did the same thing. Over the next few months I ended up in the same position many more times with a mouthful of my own cum.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

my early panty years

Throughout my early teen years I continued to enjoy my mom’s and sister’s panties. Although I always invaded the hamper to inspect and sniff the dirty panties I eventually “confiscated” a few pairs that I kept hidden in my room for my usage. By the time I was eighteen I had also acquired a few pair from my girlfriend. She thought I wanted them as a remembrance of her and had no idea that I enjoyed wearing and masturbating in them. By the time I’d finished high school I already knew that wearing panties was my favorite thing to do during masturbation. I always found it exciting to look at the bulge from my hard cock in a pair of panties then watching as my cum would soak through the material when I ejaculated. While away at college I curtailed my panty play except for when I would be home on breaks where I would enjoy some wonderful masturbation sessions in panties. I can remember late night sessions in my bedroom after smoking some weed, wearing panties and playing with my cock while looking at pictures in Playboy and Penthouse. After getting myself thoroughly aroused, I would put down the magazines and watch myself masturbate in the panties until I would soak the front of them with a massive load of cum. I often enjoy the same pleasure today except without the weed and the pictures are now from the internet. I still love to watch myself masturbate in panties and still find it very exciting seeing my panties as they get wet with my cum!

A month after finishing college I got a job and moved into my own apartment. It was the first time I lived somewhere by myself and I looked forward to being able to masturbate any time the mood hit me. By that time I had acquired a few more pairs of panties that I’d found in laundry rooms and other places during my college days, and I still had my mom’s, sister’s, and girlfriend’s although they had been used many times over. I could hardly wait to pleasure myself that first night in my apartment. Although I was barely moved in with boxes sitting everywhere I had the essentials of what I needed. I had my stereo hooked up, I smoked a little weed then I put on a pair of panties and got out my collection of Playboy and Penthouse. It took no time at all before I had a raging hard-on inside my panties and I was in heaven. I was sitting in the middle of the room in my apartment playing with my excited cock and there was no one around to interrupt me. When I couldn’t withstand the excitement any longer I went into the bathroom where I could watch myself in the mirror. I stood there thrusting my hips as I enjoyed the feeling of the silky material of the panties rubbing against my cock, then soaked them with a big load of cum. An hour later I shot another big load into a second pair of panties and I continued to masturbate in panties at least once every night during that first week.

Friday, September 18, 2009

How I started....

I've always had a panty fetish for as long as I can remember. Even at the age of 5 or 6, I loved looking at the cheerleaders panties at my brother's basketball games. I would lay in bed and make up adventures in my mind about the cheerleaders and their panties. I didn't realize it at the time but it was my first form of fantasizing. I also remember that it made my little penis feel good when I would think of the adventures but I had no idea why. As I got older I would always try to catch glimpses of girls panties, in school or playing in the neighborhood. And whenever I would catch a good glimpse I would eventually end up laying in bed and thinking up adventures about those girls and their panties. At about the age of twelve, I was in bed thinking about panties then suddenly my penis felt really good and a white fluid emerged. I had no idea what it was and thought there was something wrong with me. From that moment on for the next several months I would always try to stop when thinking of an adventure prior to my penis feeling really good and squirting out the white fluid. I finally came to the realization that there wasn't anything wrong with my penis or the white fluid and just allowed it to emerge when my penis felt good. It wasn't until I was thirteen that I understood what was happening.

One day around the time I was thirteen I was at our house alone and was thinking about panties. For some reason I decided to check the hamper for either my mom's or sisters panties. The hamper was almost full and there were several dirty pair from each of them inside. Several pairs had noticeable stains in them which led me to believe that girls often pooped their pants. I didn't know anything about females having periods at the time and I would always see either my mom's or sister's panties rinsed out and hanging in the bathroom. Pooping in them was the only logical reason at that time. I fondled, inspected and sniffed every pair of panties in the hamper that day and thought about them later on in bed. From that day on for the next several weeks I would invade the hamper every chance I had. Eventually I started having the desire to try the panties on and waited for the right moment. The day I'd been waiting for finally arrived. Everyone was gone and I was in the house alone. I checked the hamper. It was only a day after my mom had done the laundry but fortunately there was one pair of my sister's white full cut nylon panties in the hamper. I took them then went to the bathroom. After removing all my clothes I walked over in front of the full length mirror that was on the door in the bathroom then put my sisters panties on. Oh my god they felt wonderful and when I looked at myself in the mirror there was a "tent" in the front of them. I just stood there looking at myself in them, moving all around and rubbing my butt in them. I never even touched my penis but all of a sudden it had that good feeling and I saw a wet spot appearing on the front of the panties. I tried to pull them down as quickly as possible but it was already too late. I had cum in my sister's panties. I freaked out and quickly wiped the fluid out of them as best as I could then put them back in the hamper. I was happy when the next laundry day had come and gone and no one had found out what I'd done. From that day on I was intrigued by wearing panties and the events of that day were repeated many times. Fortunately after that I learned to control myself a little better although there were still a few times that my mom's or sister's panties still ended up getting wet and sticky.

Friday, September 11, 2009

I cum in my panties....

I just uploaded more pics to my Flickr account that show me cumming in my panties again. I can't believe how much I enjoy doing that! I love to masturbate and I love to cum in my pants. And I do it often! I know it's crazy when I have a willing wife but yet I can't resist. If I could, I'd masturbate and cum in my panties every day. It feels so good to be playing with my cock and then realize that it feels "too good" just before I feel a hot load squirting in my silky panties. I can tell you that it's feeling good right now. And I mean REAL GOOD!!! Oh yea, that was a nice big load! And now for cleaning up with my tongue. Like a good sissy I love to eat my cum too!